masturbating to classical music...

i've begun a new endeavor...the great search for an attractive deaf mute who has given up on everything because it's all too hard....everything except-frivelous sex...

initially i was planning to swear off sex altogether thinking that might slow the bleeding...i realized that this is silly because as long as whiskey and desperation still exist everyone will at some point have sex...and most likely it will be the most uncomplicated sex they'll ever have..but...also, and i won't pretend, the most regretable......(refer to: i spanked what with my favorite cd case and shouted, 'bring the pony into the corral! i said ride the fucking mustang into the corral!')

after lengthy innermind deliberations i've come to the deaf mute thing...i will have my friends to love and to speak with and laugh with...and i will have the cynical, relatively nice to look at mute that can never call me a dissapointment or accuse me of fucking someone while i was actually at the store getting stuff for dinner...

how satisfying,,,

vague ways to trample cats...

do the elderly get HOT deals on really big, really silver and tan, really slow cars...?
when i'm old i'm going to drive a hot rod...or a red jeep wrangler with my leg out the door...
but i'll never be old...

when i pass a park i like to find the one boy that stands off by himself...the rogue...he's usually beating something with a stick...i like to think about that boy all grown up being a really good dad...

its too bad they can't seem paint over graffiti with the right color...

everything's getting fucked up...it must be winter...